this time i mean it

so, today i turn 30.

years.

of.

age.

and, for the fourth time, i am getting after actually writing a blog.

and i'm going to keep up with it.

or else.

or else what?

oh, you'll just have to see.

or not see, as it might end up being in the case of ... i'm done with that train of thought.

but, on turning 30, there are many things to do for the year.

and since i have always hated New Year's and that resolution at the beginning of a calendar year, i think that a birthday is a much more significant time to make decisions of change.

because those decisions and actions, if they are to stick, should be reserved for a day unique to you (even if, technically, several million other people share the day ... better than over 5 billion).

so, today i start taking more pictures.

today i start writing a daily journal.

today i start posting on here; videos, thoughts, pictures, things that generally excite me and why.

with that, here is a video from one of my all-time favorite shows.

i love the characters, especially J.D. because i identify with his perspective and dealings with life. and all of his friends and co-workers, because i've either had them in my life, or wish i did (i need my own personal Turk!).

i love the music, because it always portrays and creates the emotions that i feel or long to.

i love the story and dialogue, because it has been a source of soul-building strength for me both in medical trials i've endured (as i only came to enjoy Scrubs while in the hospital for the first time, January 2006) and all other experiences in and of my life.

and i remember watching this episode, at the time 26, wondering just where i would be at 30. it's not where i imagined. though i really didn't know at the time.

but it's not a lot of things, bad and good alike.

for where i am i've realized the following:

moving forward requires these three things:

Look to the future with glorious expectation.

To the past for only momentary reflection.

Delight in the present with every bit of loving realization

that this life, in all it is, is a thing to be

treasured,

enjoyed,

valued.

with that, enjoy this clip of Scrubs:

actors: JD-Zach Braff, Elliot-Sarah Chalke, Turk-Donald Faison, Carla-Judy Reyes, Dr. Cox-John C. McGinley and Dr. Kelso-Ken Jenkins.

music: Keane - Everybody's Changing